Good Friday was a success and a failure. I planned to eat only fruit at the church potluck, but a fellow clean eater brought Greek Yogurt and clean granola, so instead I enjoyed a serving of that with my fruit. There was nothing else on the table worth cheating for! Success.
Next was the dinner meal at my in law's house. I had planned NO to dessert, which is usually paska - which is a lemony, white bread, smothered in icing and sprinkles. I have already enjoyed some this season and had planned to say NO. I did not manage to stay away from MIL's homemade rolls, eating two small ones. (zwiebak, is their German name) I ate a very moderate portion of the main meal, enjoying the cucumber salad very much. I did not manage to say no to the dessert. It wasn't even that great, so I wish I had refused, but sometimes I get so annoyed when the thin people surrounding me are enjoying the meal guilt and worry free.
It's a matter of feeling sorry for myself. God blesses some people with great genes and a great metabolism. Not me! I probably shouldn't feel sorry for myself, but sometimes it feels injust that I have to work so hard to be this weight, which is certainly not skinny! (although I do appreciate that my friend Nicole calls me skinny minny)
How ironic to feel sorry for myself at a time when we remember all that Christ suffered on our behalf. Was it fair? Absolutely not, but He gave and gave so I could have life. Having life means freedom from the overeating and I continue to discover the fullness of joy in that truth.
Eating less, moving more,
Dawne
7 comments:
Happy Easter, Dawne! May God abundantly bless you and your family!
So agree with you. Happy Easter. He is risen!
oh i so get the injustice part. yannick decided to weigh himself too today for a laugh. well ha. since i've changed what we've been eating in this house he has lost about 25 pounds. *without trying* that's more than half of what i've lost so far *with seemingly superhuman effort*.
have a great easter.
amy
I also get so incredibly frustrated at people that can seemingly eat food at will due to great metabolism. And while there are are some people out there that really can eat anything and everything and not have to worry, I started to watch people. What I found? The 'thin people' that i'm so jealous of DO watch and they are careful, it's just an automatic thing...not something that is all consuming for a food addict like myself.
My fav story....an ex manager of mine was one of these little sizew 2 women. But it burned me up because she would eat cheesecake for breakfast, ice cream for lunch and she kept a bag of skittles in her desk drawer. Ohhhh I was green with jealousy. Until I noticed the cheesecake one day.....She was working on the SAME piece of cheesecake for like 4 days! A scoop of ice cream would last for 3 meals. Hello? I could eat a WHOLE cheesecake in one sitting.....one piece took four days to eat! And that's when I realized....her mind was hardwired differently. She ate what she wanted....what her body could handle and then she was satisfied......It wasn't that her metabolism was greater....it was the choices she was making (for her it was the quantity she was eating...not the quality! LOL)
Even though you ate things you'd rather not, you still ate in moderation and in my book that's a WIN!
Keep at it, Dawne, you're getting there!!!
And in all your spare time, you should post some of these amazing recipes you try! ;-) hee hee
Great job on your eating. I totally struggle with what you do feeling it's unfair that the size 2 ladies around me eat all the good stuff and don't exercise and I'm worrying about it constantly. I, of course, try not to think this way, but it does get the best of me sometimes. Especially this weekend when I had four occasions of eating at other people's homes and they did not serve healty food.
Hey sometimes we just need a good pity party and then we can move on again!
Is it fair ? No it's not and sometimes it just ticks me off!
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