Yr. 2, Day 244-248 Not What It Seems

No, I have not fallen off the eating moderately wagon, but have been incredibly busy the last few days. I have survived on very little sleep, between work, the busy rowing season and an all day/evening choir Festival in Toronto - there has been no time to blog.

It's been interesting to be this busy because I haven't been able to devote time to planning what I am going to eat and when I am going to exercise. Despite the time constraints of the week, I managed one shorter run and a long, power walk with my husband. It has been a good indicator that I can fit exercise into a busy life, as long as it's made a priority. I hope to run this afternoon, after watching the first race in my daughter's regatta.

This is the Mother's Day regatta, the one that motivated me to battle this weight once and for all. Two years ago, I watched as Mothers handed out medals to their first place winners and was thankful my daughter's boat had not won first because I didn't want to be the fat Mom giving out a medal to my athletic daughter. Last year, her crew won second place, so the medals were not handed out at the grand stands, meaning that I didn't get to be the normal sized Mom giving her athletic daughter a medal. We'll see what happens today, but she's quite sure that her boat cannot beat a rival High School's crew.

Food wise, I have been managing quite well. It's obvious that my food preferences have changed dramatically as I have purposely not "dieted"this week. My first instinct is to choose healthy foods, and I am eating in moderation. Coupled with regular exercise, I am really excited to see if abandoning the diet regime I fell into once I hit my plateau will be what brings me to my goal weight of 155.

My plan is to eat this way until July 1st, when I will weigh in. I have two pair of pants, a size 8 petite pair of jeans that eluded me at 158, and a pair of size 8 cotton pants that will fit me before the jeans. Once those jeans fit, whatever weight I am, that will be my ideal weight.

I truly believe this is the last leg of my journey. I know that what I have learned, how I have changed and what I have to abandon to get off this roller coaster of dieting, losing and regaining will bring me to where my body needs to be. I am choosing to abandon a diet and regular scale checks. I am not suggesting that this is for anyone else but me. This has been my journey and my goal can no longer be a number, or even a skinny body, but a healthy, moderate, fit life.

Eating less, moving more,

Dawne