Yr.2, Day 249-251 Interesting Blog!

I am writing from my bed, curled up in my duvet, even though the rest of the city is enjoying the sunshine in their summer clothes outside. Last night, my stomach was quite upset, but today, I have a fever, headache and sore throat. I worked part of the day, but I could not continue. It is painful to even speak.

I have discovered, through a friend, a blog that has been very helpful. It is written by a Canadian physician who is an obesity expert. I found this article extremely interesting in particular.

http://www.weightymatters.ca/2011/04/if-last-10lbs-are-hardest-youre-doing.html?utm_medium=twitter&utm_source=twitterfeed

In addition to this article, I have also been following Shelly, at My Journey to Fit, and her slight weight gain. It has been encouraging to me that she is also gauging her weight situation based on clothing, but her most recent post really caught my attention. When she was at her absolute smallest, she was dissatisfied with her remaining stomach flab. I have often worked hard to reach a weight goal, only to be dissatisfied with myself when I arrive at that weight. There is always something - flabby arms, extra fat on the stomach, etc.

Looking back over my years of battling weight, I have come to realize that there is always something that eludes me. I can never quite reach that magic goal weight or fit into my friend's smallest pant size. This sense of "failure"only keeps me on the never ending cycle of overeating, dieting, losing and gaining it back. There has to a point of satisfaction.

It is exciting that my mind is consumed with keeping what I have lost off and not on how to lose more and get to the magic number I gave myself. I am still overweight - I should weigh 155 for a moderate body weight of someone my height and build. (according to my Dr., whom I trust and respect) I have proven that I am not going to get to 155 and keep it off by "dieting"or striving for 149, just to get out of the 150's.

At this point, I am learning to eat without obsession regarding calories, fat, fiber, carb or protein. I am continuing to learn what it means to eat in moderation, while making good, healthy choices. I understand and appreciate the role that physical exercise plays in my spiritual, physical and mental well being and I believe that my body weight will follow! I have two pair of pants to fit into and when they fit comfortably, that is my goal weight.

Eating less, moving more,

Dawne