I thinks some people have a greater tendency to struggles with specific things. For instance, I have absolutely no attraction to smoking or drinking as a means to cope with life's stresses, but there are many people in this world who feel powerless over those habits.
The fact is I have to work harder than other people to maintain a relatively normal sized physique. I cannot enjoy high calorie snacks, even on occasion, without that food doing damage to my size. I put on my weight extremely easy. At this point, it seems I have no control over that genetic fact, but perhaps with increased muscle my metabolism will change. Despite how hard I have to work, it is my choice to make.
I choose to continue to fight and work hard. That includes writing my blog, whether I chose to make it private at some point or not. I choose not to be a blogger who gave up when the going got tough. I also choose not to be a blogger continually stuck, which is who I seem to be today. I choose to work as hard as possible to lose my remaining weight within a time frame - my two year anniversary. I know how to lose weight and I am determined to learn how to keep it off.
I choose to get back to serious running and rediscover it's joys and benefits. (I had a decant run/power walk yesterday) It's a choice. There are no excuses for me. Life can throw what it will, but I am the only one who chooses to put something in my mouth to cope with it.
I've made my choice and I am going to get there. I plan to take a photo of the two pair of pants I hope to fit into by September 1st. I plan to weigh in on June 1, officially record it, even if I have to change my ticker. I choose to be accountable to this forum and I choose to be a successful loser!
Choosing to eat less and move more,
Dawne
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Good for you. YOu've self-evaluated, accepted reality (even as much as it sucks, and as a metabolically challenged gal, I feel ya), and you're moving FORWARD with goals in mind and accountability as a tool.
I get annoyed when bloggers gain 15, 20, 30 pounds and never change their lowest weight ticker. I know that weight in women, esp, fluctuates 3to 5 pounds with hormones/water. But dang, some folks go up and up and up and up and never adjust. I don't know if it's hope/wishful thinking/shame/regret, but it's lacking in honesty and accountability. I figure after a 5 to 7 pound uptick that stays put more than one week, it's time to just change and accept it's not just a bit of fluctuation. It's fat! ; )
I don't smoke. I'm not a drinker. I eat. That's my vice. And as a person with more than one compulsion disorder (binge eating, hoarding) and several neuroses (phobias), I know it's all part of my weaknesses. Food really hypes my pleasure centers like mad and makes me feel SECURE. But it's a false security and it's a dangerous pleasure.
I wish you well. So glad you didn't close out the blog. I like reading yours...
I'm glad you're still on the wagon, and still pushing through to your goal!
I finally changed my ticker the other day; I would love to be 125 but the reality of me ever getting there is very slim. So I switched it to 135, which is much more attainable for me.
Although I admit I'm not doing anything hardcore to actually lose right now, but hopefully I'll get some energy and feel better soon.
Keep it up, Dawne, you're doing a GREAT job!
It's all about that journey, isn't it? I'm glad you are sharing yours and keeping it real. It helps me do the same. You GO GIRL!!!
~Margene
Good for you, Dawne.
I'm glad the road has led you to clarity, renewed determination, and a willingness to be open about your numbers. Shame and failure thrive in darkness; the light removes their power and defeats them.
You are an overcomer, girlfriend. :D
Deb
You're realistic about your adversity, Dawne, and your determination is inspiring. I'm cheering for you!
YAY!!!!!!!!!!
Dawne, you are absolutely right. It is all about choices and you've made some really good ones here. I don't think you'll be sorry.
I've given you an award in my post that will be published first thing in the morning. It is an award you truly deserve. The only requirement is to pass it along to another blogger who is equally deserving.
Never feel you are alone in your struggle....you have done so well, sit down and think of what you have done, how far you have come...you will be amazed and see what we your reader sees...Some one who has changed her life, turned it around, a fighter, someone who will never give up no matter what....
I'm happy that you are feeling this way...
I so want you to get where you want to be and be happy...its so weird how we see a number as happiness, but when you get to that number ( talking from my experience ) and below, happiness lasts for a week or so, then the fight to remain at that number begins...still cant eat what you want to, still have to make good choices and watch portion sizes...it never ends.
Glad to hear you're hanging around. :)
I, too, have read every post of yours, and I'm glad you've decided to keep it up! Your determination to make the right choices over and over again are an inspiration to me, sometimes with regards food but more often with regards to other challenges in life. To 'do the right thing' is a daily (usually more often!) decision, and what you've shared of your journey over the last 21 months has been a blessing to me.
I'll keep praying for you.
~Amy (I really ought to get my own ID, huh?! :)
You are awesome Dawne!
I rarely comment anymore but I never miss a post.
Just yesterday(while running!) I was thinking about you and how you inspire me with your committment to this lifestyle and how you can express yourself in it!!1
I am so glad you are going to continue to share with us!!!
Awesome Dawne! I hear the fire in your writing! I am with you girl, fighting to the end. But then I guess in this journey there really never is an end. We just keeping moving forward and dealing with it as it comes.
Dawne,
I am SO SO SUPER happy to hear you aren't done blogging.
You can do this!
Have a good one
Jen
I was hoping you would say this!
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