I wanted to wear my dress. In the past when I've lost weight, I haven't been able to wear clothes for more than one season. When I bought "skinny"clothes last summer, I desperately wanted to be able to wear them again. The dress fit. I did not look as thin in it as I did a year ago, but it was not a struggle to get the zipper up. I don't let that fool me into thinking that I am 164, because I am not, but I could be very soon if...
I drank 8 -10 full glasses of water daily
I would consistently eat healthy foods in moderation, clearly sticking to a low calorie count.
I would stop buying Perkins Peanut Butter ice cream in the USA.
I would start fasting again and see what's going on with my soul/heart.
Even though the dress fit, a small blouse did NOT fit today. At my smallest, the blouse was a bit tight, but is literally unwearable at this point. Oh the pain of it all. I know many of you understand and others shake their head and think - "Get it together Dawne".
I am trying and I am not giving up. I am not going to be a blogger that slowly disappears. It would seem I am on that path...posting less and less and as I gain and gain.
The positive is that I've kept up with some running this week and my running partner is back from vacation and ready to go! She motivates me.
This weekend was not good for eating. Yesterday was the wedding, and oh my goodness - it was amazing food. I ate a huge piece of beef and felt like a cow myself when I was through. Today, we celebrated our kid's amazing report cards at the Mandarin - a buffet style restaurant. Any Canadian will understand how that ended. A funny story from there...We were reading our fortunes from our fortune cookies to each other and it came time for my 13 year old son's turn. With a serious face, looking at the slip of paper, he reads, "Your sister will never find love." It was so hilarious. We all burst out laughing at his sense of humour! Even his 16 year old sister.
I'm going back and reading my posts, 1 a day from day 1 to find inspiration. I am going back to eating like I did in those early days, when it seemed easy. It worked for 80 pounds...I need to let it work again. I am not done!
Eating less, moving more,
Dawne
8 comments:
Dawne, I'm glad you're determined to keep at it. And, yeah, the ice cream would be a good thing to quit buying. :)
I know everyone is different, but we've all been where you are now (me, for 10 months and until 2 weeks ago.) My my eating came under control when I cut out all grains two weeks ago.
I don't know if that would work for you or not. It just stopped all cravings for me and removed that constant feeling that I needed to eat.
Like I said, we're all differrent. The good news is that God knows what will work for you. I know you've asked Him, so I know the answer is on the way.
Prayers,
Deb
Dawne...you have to find yourself again....I want the other Dawne back...the Dawne that had it all happening with her weight loss...the Dawne that motivated me with each entry...the Dawne who went into Clean Eating the same time as me.
You have to get rid of that weight gained...its not an option...
YOU HAVE TO DO THIS FOR YOURSELF...You can do it, I've watched you lose weight with each week and envied your losses.
I too will pray for you to find the strength again....
It is SO hard to get it back once you've lost the motivation. I pray for strength for you.
I mentioned it my last post that if we could just figure out what "flips" the switch from totally motivated with little effort to a downward spiral that just won't quit.
Don't give up and PLEASE don't quit blogging. We know - we've been there too and we love you unconditionally.
It does take almost as much to maintain as it did to lose! I guess it's still like a musician metaphor.....
even the "famous" musicians still have to practice!
And that's OK!
I think your are doing great!
I totally understand this spot you are at....desperate for the motivation to kick back in and start losing effortlessly (or so it seems!)
I see a glimpse of it here and there but like you, I refuse to give up on myself, by the grace of God we get a chance to start a new everyday!
Praying for you...seriously, the post card you sent me along with the books last fall is on my fridge to remind me to pray for you daily!
Lots of love and hugs!
Thought of this chapater--thought of you. Romans 8
From the beginning---"there is therefore now no condemnation to those who arre in Christ Jesus"---to the end---"I am convinced that...nothing can separate us form the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."---it's a good word for times like these.
Deb
We can do it!
I too am "starting over" in a sense; trying to find my motivation to finish what I've started.
The weather here has been so rainy and cold... and that makes me want to bake. And eat.
My sister and I are starting the 17 Day Diet today. It's the 3rd time for me. :-P But, I will lose these last pounds to get to goal, and I know you will too!
I am catching up on your posts since I have been away. Girl...I am in the same boat. around 180ish. But I am working hard and so are you to take this one day at a time. One meal at a time. Thats all we can do. do our best. Did I deserve to gain 20 lbs in a few weeks? nope. Maybe 5 or even 10 but 20 is just mean. But like you say, all I can do is deal with what life dishes me out. So...let do this!
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